Constitution and Disruption of Identities : Between Feminist and Idol since the Early 2000s

In this paper, I raise a question about why I concern that I like (girl) Idol whereas I position myself as an ‘anti-capitalist feminist’. This confusion I felt means that I have unstable positionality and I become political space where the discourses contest. I consider new politics through revealing my agony, positionality, and tension embedded in my position through autoethnography. In this process, I explore the construction and disruption of ‘anti-capitalist feminist fan’ identity, analyzing that both Idol and ‘anti-capitalist feminist’ are negotiating being and the sphere where signifying contests. It means that the identification by otherizing or loving Idol should be understood through (dis)connection between Idol culture and the radical student movement culture since the early 2000s and my position change like a graduate student. At the same time, I reveal ‘authentic’ ‘anti-capitalist feminist’ does not exist because it is in the process of being constituted and disciplined imaginarily and I claim that reconstitute the signification of ‘anti-capitalist feminist’ again.